What I want...
If someone would pay me to share all the knowledge that I know I have in my heart, I’d be good. I don’t need everything, I won’t have everything…but I want the things that I want.
I want my parents to live every last day on this earth comfortably, lacking for nothing, taken care of…by the world. Everywhere they went; smooth sailing… I want my family to thrive and be prosperous, I wish for people to know us, to see us in our element, being, loving, laughing…I know that there is something about us that is special, and that can touch a lot of people. I know that the world is searching for someone to believe when it comes to having a happy life, a happy family…WE can show them, one day at a time.
Am I dreaming too high? Why, I’ve always seen things higher than was necessary. I’ve always been a dreamer.
I want us all to be just as we always have been, safe to be, who we are, together and apart.
I want the vibrations of our supreme connection to be a healing salve for the world. We have somehow been given the divine insight, messages from God, that confirm we were not simply dreaming too high, we were planning for the day when these amazing things would happen. I want my children to have everything they need, EVERYTHING, I want them to know God, believe in his presence with them always, allowing them to feel safe to be all that they are…
I want so much…I’ve always said those words. “I’m not asking for much, just a little bit.” I’m quickly learning that that is not entirely true.
I want my husband to know extreme happiness, I want him to know joy…so that he can stop worrying about whatever it is that he’s worrying about and just be himself, with me and our children, smiling, giving, laughing…we all spend a lot of time laughing…but I still want more! I want him to feel safe in the warmth of my family’s love. He’s our family now too…Yeah; I want a lot of things.
I want to meet Oprah, and Maya Angelou, and other beautiful black women. I want to meet many beautiful black men too…I want to know what makes them tick. Women and Men. And then I want to have the never ending talent to write about it. The insight to share something through fiction that may change the way people deal with each other…change the standard by which we determine the worth of a relationship, the worth of a friendship, the worth of oneself. I want people to care about each other again. I want an authentic world.
That’s too much. …I want to teach people how to enjoy life by living authentically. Striving for joy and happiness and peace. If everyone made that their goal, this world would be so great. 10 years, 20, 90; if the world cared, it would still be the best ten years alive, or twenty or ninety. Think of how much knowledge a 90 year old in my world could pass on…think of the impact on the generations to come…It’s a legacy of…I can’t even find the right word for right there…see, I told you I dreamed higher than necessary.
I’d settle for an honest president, or prime minister. I would settle for caring, compassionate judges in court, I would settle for men and women who behave responsibly, morally…people who tried to do something for themselves, because it the only thing to do, as opposed to rape, murder, theft, abduction, all those terrible things that people do to other people instead of just finding a little good inside them and going with that instead. I want to calm desperation…I want to bring peace. I want to encourage confidence and empowerment and integrity.
I want to learn and teach love…Passion. Rapture; has anyone ever been enraptured?
Money could get me all of that, if I had enough money…or maybe it could just clear our debt so we’re starting fresh, start some serious investment for our children, ease our parents for awhile, provide us with enough money that I can stay home and write. I really just want to write; whenever it takes me, this muse; she’s happy with me right now. I’m inspired to write, anything. My thoughts are so clear I just want to share them. If they’re pertinent at the time…
I got a thought about anything. It’s a real problem…
I’m making a reasonable request.
How many people can say that they have received messages from God and their angels with such clarity that within a 14 day period it has changed their lives? How many people can chart the exact time of when, and how, Divine knowledge came to them? How many people can describe the moment when they felt God’s presence beside them and knew exactly what they were supposed to do to continue in his blessings, continue on the path and receive great rewards? How many people know that their passage is blessed? I am not foolish enough to think all this happens Just Like That…
It may not be the end of the road when I reach my destination, but the beginning of one even further down the line, more meaningful, more prosperous, and more beneficial to more people. But I know How to complete this part of my destiny and I’m doing it right now. I’m thinking, I’m healing, I’m learning from what is inside, voices from God? Angels? Ancestors?
And I’m writing about it.
I have something to do here…we all have a divine purpose.
I’m tickled that I know in my heart, in my soul, (my hand shook with that!) I know that I am on the right path and somehow it has taken all my fears away…I know that I still have reality to deal with. Because I’ve seen the end doesn’t mean that I don’t have to participate in the now…I just feel sure that whatever I am doing; if I am diligent, responsible and patient…willing to work and optimistic. If I have faith in my abilities and the presence of God and my angels, support from my family and friends…I will be rewarded.
Eventually things will be better than they’ve ever been and we can all take a breath, and enjoy this beautiful life we’ve been given. Enjoy the people that soothe, restore, and feed our souls. Without guilt, for a greater good.
I have no intention of taking my path for granted. I know that I will have to work…I know that I will have to push, and that I have to share. I have no problem with that. My vision is bigger than that. My vision is all of that…
I’m even getting Mom to believe the hype. I don’t think I will ever feel absolutely comfortable with her and that aspect of my writing; well, I’m comfortable with myself, I just don’t think I would ever ask her to critique my work.. It would be enough for her to know, based on whatever else I write, about my talent. Erotica will always be my favorite…it stimulates me, but I am confident enough in my ability at this point; Thank you God, the Angels, my guide. I am confident enough to know for sure that it doesn’t have to be all. I can successfully write about other things and my messages; that “Tashe factor” will still be infused in it.
My style, my voice…God’s blessings.
I feel so calm…but I’m so excited at the same time.
I wish I could talk to other people who have had this type of experience. Spiritual awakening, divine guidance…Talking in tongues…that happens to some…
I’m all over the place with this piece. I have no direction; I just feel that there is so much to say, so much to share. That urgency is Spiritual. I want others to feel as I do right now, for their own reasons, in their own way…I don’t mind being the messenger. I just need people to want to be there, now.
I’M NO EXPERT, I CAN’T GET ANYONE THERE…I can simply share my story and maybe it’ll give you some insight as to what you should use to fulfill your own potential for spiritual growth as a tool for a better life. A prosperous life; authentic and thoroughly enjoyable.
I sound like an infomercial. Should that ever come to pass; I will try harder…
I feel like laughing, out loud and long.
It’s a letter just like this, to exactly the right person, (God’s work), that changes a life from normal to extraordinary. I’m about to change some lives…
I know joy, straight up, joy. That baby I had to check on seconds ago, our precious, brilliant four year old, sleeping soundly with a dry bed, my sleeping, okay, snoring husband…I really am just so good right now!
That has to mean something!
I want my parents to live every last day on this earth comfortably, lacking for nothing, taken care of…by the world. Everywhere they went; smooth sailing… I want my family to thrive and be prosperous, I wish for people to know us, to see us in our element, being, loving, laughing…I know that there is something about us that is special, and that can touch a lot of people. I know that the world is searching for someone to believe when it comes to having a happy life, a happy family…WE can show them, one day at a time.
Am I dreaming too high? Why, I’ve always seen things higher than was necessary. I’ve always been a dreamer.
I want us all to be just as we always have been, safe to be, who we are, together and apart.
I want the vibrations of our supreme connection to be a healing salve for the world. We have somehow been given the divine insight, messages from God, that confirm we were not simply dreaming too high, we were planning for the day when these amazing things would happen. I want my children to have everything they need, EVERYTHING, I want them to know God, believe in his presence with them always, allowing them to feel safe to be all that they are…
I want so much…I’ve always said those words. “I’m not asking for much, just a little bit.” I’m quickly learning that that is not entirely true.
I want my husband to know extreme happiness, I want him to know joy…so that he can stop worrying about whatever it is that he’s worrying about and just be himself, with me and our children, smiling, giving, laughing…we all spend a lot of time laughing…but I still want more! I want him to feel safe in the warmth of my family’s love. He’s our family now too…Yeah; I want a lot of things.
I want to meet Oprah, and Maya Angelou, and other beautiful black women. I want to meet many beautiful black men too…I want to know what makes them tick. Women and Men. And then I want to have the never ending talent to write about it. The insight to share something through fiction that may change the way people deal with each other…change the standard by which we determine the worth of a relationship, the worth of a friendship, the worth of oneself. I want people to care about each other again. I want an authentic world.
That’s too much. …I want to teach people how to enjoy life by living authentically. Striving for joy and happiness and peace. If everyone made that their goal, this world would be so great. 10 years, 20, 90; if the world cared, it would still be the best ten years alive, or twenty or ninety. Think of how much knowledge a 90 year old in my world could pass on…think of the impact on the generations to come…It’s a legacy of…I can’t even find the right word for right there…see, I told you I dreamed higher than necessary.
I’d settle for an honest president, or prime minister. I would settle for caring, compassionate judges in court, I would settle for men and women who behave responsibly, morally…people who tried to do something for themselves, because it the only thing to do, as opposed to rape, murder, theft, abduction, all those terrible things that people do to other people instead of just finding a little good inside them and going with that instead. I want to calm desperation…I want to bring peace. I want to encourage confidence and empowerment and integrity.
I want to learn and teach love…Passion. Rapture; has anyone ever been enraptured?
Money could get me all of that, if I had enough money…or maybe it could just clear our debt so we’re starting fresh, start some serious investment for our children, ease our parents for awhile, provide us with enough money that I can stay home and write. I really just want to write; whenever it takes me, this muse; she’s happy with me right now. I’m inspired to write, anything. My thoughts are so clear I just want to share them. If they’re pertinent at the time…
I got a thought about anything. It’s a real problem…
I’m making a reasonable request.
How many people can say that they have received messages from God and their angels with such clarity that within a 14 day period it has changed their lives? How many people can chart the exact time of when, and how, Divine knowledge came to them? How many people can describe the moment when they felt God’s presence beside them and knew exactly what they were supposed to do to continue in his blessings, continue on the path and receive great rewards? How many people know that their passage is blessed? I am not foolish enough to think all this happens Just Like That…
It may not be the end of the road when I reach my destination, but the beginning of one even further down the line, more meaningful, more prosperous, and more beneficial to more people. But I know How to complete this part of my destiny and I’m doing it right now. I’m thinking, I’m healing, I’m learning from what is inside, voices from God? Angels? Ancestors?
And I’m writing about it.
I have something to do here…we all have a divine purpose.
I’m tickled that I know in my heart, in my soul, (my hand shook with that!) I know that I am on the right path and somehow it has taken all my fears away…I know that I still have reality to deal with. Because I’ve seen the end doesn’t mean that I don’t have to participate in the now…I just feel sure that whatever I am doing; if I am diligent, responsible and patient…willing to work and optimistic. If I have faith in my abilities and the presence of God and my angels, support from my family and friends…I will be rewarded.
Eventually things will be better than they’ve ever been and we can all take a breath, and enjoy this beautiful life we’ve been given. Enjoy the people that soothe, restore, and feed our souls. Without guilt, for a greater good.
I have no intention of taking my path for granted. I know that I will have to work…I know that I will have to push, and that I have to share. I have no problem with that. My vision is bigger than that. My vision is all of that…
I’m even getting Mom to believe the hype. I don’t think I will ever feel absolutely comfortable with her and that aspect of my writing; well, I’m comfortable with myself, I just don’t think I would ever ask her to critique my work.. It would be enough for her to know, based on whatever else I write, about my talent. Erotica will always be my favorite…it stimulates me, but I am confident enough in my ability at this point; Thank you God, the Angels, my guide. I am confident enough to know for sure that it doesn’t have to be all. I can successfully write about other things and my messages; that “Tashe factor” will still be infused in it.
My style, my voice…God’s blessings.
I feel so calm…but I’m so excited at the same time.
I wish I could talk to other people who have had this type of experience. Spiritual awakening, divine guidance…Talking in tongues…that happens to some…
I’m all over the place with this piece. I have no direction; I just feel that there is so much to say, so much to share. That urgency is Spiritual. I want others to feel as I do right now, for their own reasons, in their own way…I don’t mind being the messenger. I just need people to want to be there, now.
I’M NO EXPERT, I CAN’T GET ANYONE THERE…I can simply share my story and maybe it’ll give you some insight as to what you should use to fulfill your own potential for spiritual growth as a tool for a better life. A prosperous life; authentic and thoroughly enjoyable.
I sound like an infomercial. Should that ever come to pass; I will try harder…
I feel like laughing, out loud and long.
It’s a letter just like this, to exactly the right person, (God’s work), that changes a life from normal to extraordinary. I’m about to change some lives…
I know joy, straight up, joy. That baby I had to check on seconds ago, our precious, brilliant four year old, sleeping soundly with a dry bed, my sleeping, okay, snoring husband…I really am just so good right now!
That has to mean something!
posted by Tashe | 2:11 AM
5 Comments:
Tashe, I thought of you the last couple of days as well. Blog friendship is funny, isnt it? I don't know you but when I truly believed this was crumbling, I thought of you as someone who would be let down. Your words tell me you understand that Jack and I are different and for just a short period of time, I doubted that we were. I doubted that we could handle such a trial and that would mean that we were wrong, we would have been just like all of the other unenlightened lovers. I am apologetic to him for this doubt, I should have known that he is stronger than that or he wouldnt be who he is to me and I will know that from this point forward. Thank you for your words. Your writing is incredible and I hope too that you get to share your gift with the world.
And yes, when I am in his arms, I am enraptured...thank you also for this word.
my mom and brother spoke for the first time in more then 5 years... the power of "tashe" lives on!
happy belated Easter - hope the day was a great one... give a kiss and hug to all, especially the newest into God's family
Wiz.
just food for thought...but try on making unreasonable requests. those reasonable ones undoubtedly will bring about, at the very most, reasonable outcomes.
you be what it is you want for others...a mirror of sorts...and see what happens. it's a new habit. it takes practice. it isn't about GETTING anyone to believe anything. we all inherently know it. you be it. live it. share it. they'll want what you have. we all do. that's how they get it. they remember, just as you have. you do not need people to want. you do not need, period. the spirituality is urgent. consider if everything we did was as urgent. consider the ripple effect that your conversations have on the planet. it is urgent. life is urgent. peace on earth is so overwhelmingly urgent that the masses have given up and settled. are complacent and resigned. you must KNOW that you are connected to everything, Creator included. whatever your purpose is, is being fulfilled right now. and now. and now. there is no eventually. there is no higher than necessary dream. Joes Crab Shack has a marqui quote that captures this perfectly..."free crab legs tomorrow" ...tomorrow never comes, dear one.
The time is now. and you ARE the one. you are she, for whom they have waited.
tashe, I have been missing your words...I hope all is well charlotte
Cool blog, interesting information... Keep it UP »
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